You may have noticed a slight lack in presence on my blog in the past month, and to be completely honest, I've just not felt like blogging. My blog was always something I set up as something to do in my spare time as a hobby, and I always said to myself if I wasn't enjoying it anymore I would stop. And lately I felt like I needed a little break away from my blog. It wasn't so much that I wasn't enjoying writing my blog anymore, but more that things in my person life were taking over and I wasn't in a very happy place.
University - I've mentioned university before on my blog, but recently it's been taking over my life. I'm currently in my third and final year of uni, with less than 2 months to go until I finish my degree. And it's becoming very overwhelming. I'd like to say I'm half way through my dreaded dissertation, but sadly I'm not, I've hardly even started it. I had some difficulties with my question, and my tutor changed at the start of the year and I've only just found I'm doing the right thing. I've also got a ton of other uni work that just never seems to end and all piles up at once. I'm finally working my way through it, and I've set myself up a plan of how I'm going to get it all done and I'm now feeling a little calmer about the whole thing. If I still feel like this in the couple of weeks run up till the end, we'll see.
The Future - To add with the stresses of the end of university, comes the stress of thinking what I'm going to do about my future. Since my second year of uni I've thought I've wanted to work in PR, but I had no way of being sure. I was lucky enough to be offered two weeks work experience at a local PR company, which really helped me in making my decision, PR is definitely for me.
Hair - I'd had red hair for nearly 2 years and suddenly one day I decided to get rid of it. I went about bought some Colour B4, stripped my hair and dyed it brown. I instantly hated it. My red hair had been my identity for 2 years and now I had dark brown hair. Now that it's lightened up a bit I'm starting to like it. It still has bit of a red tint to it, so it's not a complete change, but I'm starting to want it to go back to my natural brown colour.
Depression - I've mentioned in the past on my blog that I have depression, and recently I've been feeling pretty down. It's probably due to my uni stress, and thinking about my future, but I've not been feeling like doing anything. As I mentioned I've just found myself living under piles of uni work, so doing other things I enjoy makes me feel guilty. Even now writing this blog post and not doing my uni work is making me feel guilty. I'm hoping when the stress of uni is gone that this will also go back to normal.
So that's why I've been a little quiet around here lately, but now I feel things are a little more in control I'll hopefully be getting a few more blog posts out this month.
I completely understand where you coming from. I'm in my third year of uni studying law and the last few weeks I have just has a non-stop panic feeling of how an earth am I ever going to do all this. With deadlines, seminar prep and exams looming. Even talking about it stresses me out. I'm writing my blog at the moment of a way to escape into all thing beauty to take my mind of work even for just and hour. It is really nice to know that other people are going to be going though the same thing! We will do it and in two months we will never have to write another essay again! x
ReplyDeleteIt's nice to know someone else is going through the same and understands :) good luck to you as well! xx
DeleteAwws, you should always focus on your university work :) I graduated last year and i understand how overwhelming your last year can be with all the stress of the dissertation and exams! You should relax a little bit more and plan ahead so that you have enough time to do things that you intend to be done first. Blogging can always wait~ I'm sure that once you get back into the blogging spirit, there will be many readers who will enjoy all your blog posts again :D
ReplyDeleteTake Care of yourself and stay positive
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Thank you Ying :) xx
DeleteAww I hope you're okay! I kind of know where you're coming from, when I was in my last few months of university I was under SO much pressure. Not only had I barely started my dissertation, I had just broken up with my ex of 2 years and still lived with him and was failing all my work. I contemplated just quitting the year and retaking it the following year but I pushed myself through. Although I wasn't overall pleased with my dissertation in the end and regret not putting more effort into it or starting it sooner, I was so glad that it was all over and realize now that my degree isn't THAT important. I was quite lucky because as much of a douche that my ex is and how hard it was living with him and being on and off so constantly, I can't deny the fact that he was supportive when it came to my dissertation and pushed me to get it done.
ReplyDeleteTry not to feel so overwhelmed - schedules help A LOT at this time of the year. Schedule/plan how much work you want to achieve daily/weekly, and agree in advance on things that you can treat yourself too once the work is done, like a night in with movies or a couple of drinks in town. But don't worry too much, obviously you want to give it your all but as long as you pass really that's all that matters. If you stress yourself out too much you're going to wear yourself down and not want to work even less.
If you need to talk to anyone you know I'm here! We'll go for a big night out when you're home to celebrate :) xxx
Thanks Louise :) really appreciate it, I look forward to celebrations with you at the end of it :) xx
DeleteSorry to hear that you have been feeling down hunnie, remember one step at a time, that and trying your best is all that you can do. Think positive and put your mind to it and I am sure that you will succeed.
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Sadie xx
Thanks Sadie :) xx
DeleteI completely understand how you feel. My third year was the most stressed I have ever been. My only advice a year on would be that it will be over and it is worth it. Hang in there and try to not let it overwhelm you! always here if you need to talk.
ReplyDeleteNafisah xx
University life can be overwhelming especially in the last few years. The stress of increased work, the uncertainty of passing or failing, the (sometimes) tedious lectures each and every day, all these combined with any personal things you are dealing with, can certainly depress even the happiest of people.
ReplyDeleteAlways remember that it's ok to take a short break. If everything gets a bit too hard, take a step back and try to see things from a different perspective. Is it worth it? Can I make it? Will this help set my future? You might be surprised what a day or two of not thinking about things can do for you.
Treat yourself to a pampering session. A massage, a short shopping spree, indulging in comfort food, buying a favorite book old or new. You deserve it for all your hard work.
Cheer up. :)
I'm sorry to hear about your situation but I hope you are much much better now! I've went through really tough periods in my life, including bullying and depression so I think I can somewhat understand your feelings. But do press on anyway, I'm sure you can do it!
ReplyDeleteI'd like to share this quote with you: "Whenever you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
Good luck and best wishes for your uni life and I hope you don't over-stress yourself worrying about the future!
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I know how you might be feeling know, since I have been through the same situation.
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